Friday, September 9, 2011


Let's just say I had a hard time with this. A really hard time. Anyone can tell you I'm not the most emotional person there is. I bawled... like a baby. The day before I mentioned to Benson that when I got ready to go to school, my dad always gave me a blessing. I sorta just mentioned it in passing. As soon as Ben got home from meetings that morning Benson said, "Dad, will you give me a blessing so that I can go to school?" I was so proud of him. Anyway, that night during the blessing I couldn't hold back the tears. (I must still have some pregnancy hormones! ;-) ) Ben gave him such a sweet blessing. Of course Hiley wanted too. She is usually very squirmy and ADD but she sat there so quiet with her arms folded like she was taking in everything her dad was saying. It was awesome. Benson kept telling me not to be sad that he wasn't scared and that I would be with Hiley and Sadie. So funny! I told him they were happy tears but he didn't seem to buy it! Anyway, I did really good the next day... up until the bus pulled away! I decided that I didn't like this job of being a mom anymore and I hated the idea of having to let my boy go into this BIG BAD world of ours. I just hope and pray every day that we have done the best we could with teaching him everything that the schools do not. I really do like this job by the way, just not the hard stuff... like letting them grow up!!

Some of Benson's favorites right now:

Color: red
Food: pizza
Treat: cookies
Movie: Star Wars
Best Friend: Tryston
Thing to do: play with friends and play the Wii

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Wade Meier said...

I am a little late getting around to reading your message about Benson, but I want to thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Being a mom (or dad) is not always what we grow up thinking it is going to be; like so many things in life we have to experience ourselves in order to fully understand. As you have more father's blessings in your home, and as you send more children off to their first day of school, you will come to a greater appreciation of the love your own parents have for you. It wasn't easy for them either, it never is. Even now they have some of the same fears and concerns you have for their own children. You have begun to understand their love in ways you never could before.

Thanks for being such a good wife to my son and such wonderful mother to my grandchildren.